juosie

2009-12-31T22:53:00.000-08:00

it's a new year =D 2010!

hehe... it's gonna be great -- it'll be a marvelous year...

BECAUSE I SAID SO.

hmm should i close my blog? i've been thinking bout it for a while now... but the thought of being able to scream to the whole world is just too hard to let go...

anyways... well....

hee XD

a small piece of each to remember =)

2009-12-23T19:55:00.001-08:00

now that you sit down and think, yea min, i feel it too. it's really over...

but like louise says, don't cry because it's over. smile because it happened. i find that really comforting =)

and a whole lot has happened... and now you feel like digging up every single memory, grasping them in your hands and never letting them go...

that's why i wanna write this post =D heehee..

hmm where to start??

first of course there's the beloved 5s6 =)

we all started off in 4s6, and were pretty much clueless bout everyone else... at first it was hard to mix around, and i confess, i thought we were never going to be close like how a class should be.

but i was wrong!!!

it dawned on me that the only thing holding me back from mixing with everyone was myself. and after that, i realized how much fun this class could be =D
we were punished so many times, having to draw the big banner, pick rubbish and stuff, but you can't ignore all the good times we had =D celebrating hari raya in cik ash's house, laughing so much in class(thought currently in mind: hairband incident XD), getting that big card ready for ms teoh, and all the good times with our wonderful teachers... these are all memories that i will cherish =) oh and the banner was real nice too, agreed??
in class i got closer with a bunch of wacky friends, some naming themselves after foodstuff (i'm mashed potato by the way) and some (two) keeping me "informed" about human reproduction automatically each day =.= you laugh so much each day that you get stomach cramps. and having a deskmate with (seriously) a screw loose doesn't help =P lol. even spm is fun, because of you all. but you are all awesome friends - being honest about it.

then there's the part of being a prefect.. 4 years in chs i've been a part of the prefects' board, and lol, i wouldn't be me if i weren't selected =) perhaps, especially in form 1-3, we weren't much liked by others... i remember being scolded, "finger-gestured" and all the conflicts i had during duty, but they were part and parcel of being a prefect. all that i went through as a blue-tied member of chs taught me a lot... and it's being a part of the pref board that i got to know many, many wonderful friends whom i'll remember forever. from the moment we got our badges to the instant we threw our ties, we were in it together as one =)

most of the craziest memories i have in chs are because of girl guides... i tell you, you can't not go crazy with these friends =D no, more like sisters. one thing is, in gg, it can be sure that all friends are true no matter what -- going through the sunburns, carrying bakau and etc etc together, how can we not be?? all the sweet (and sometimes "sweat" =.=) memories, like building gadgets with sore hands, getting all dirty, sleeping under the stars in the middle of the padang... i can't thank you all enough for all that =) you all gave me so many grandmother stories to tell.

then there are a few tuition buddies whom i go for nirmala with... before that we went as a foursome but later it became three... you all taught me to take the bus (hehe... ><).. and i won't remember the constant fear we had -- "is nirmala giving a quiz or test today?" lol, she was a great one right? i'll forever remember her voice saying, "ACIDIFIED POTASSIUM MANGANATE SEVEN!!!!!!!" hahahaha!!! tuition was fun with you all =D

speaking of tuition, there's this literature-tuition clan too. know what you're asking -- "literature got tuition one ah??" haha but yea, we took it to brush up on lit. and what we got was a whole lot of laughter. i'll remember our ultimate trademark -- crossing the road as chickens, the times we had discussing about talking horses, counting the letters in the alphabet, gossiping to no end about anything, and well, mainly just laughing till the tummy ached =D i loved each class -- there was no end to the chatting and laughter and fun, but we still learned so, so much. we were prob the noisiest class mrs pathma had. she's sure gonna miss us =P all the role playing in julius caesar, the poems, stories and almost anything else we discussed in class.... really, lit is a great great thing. which made us crave for boston cheese cake one day. our fav place - cherry cake house =D

note the pink exclamation mark! the aunty in the shop liked us =P
even though we started only in september, i'm real gonna miss all of you in lit class...

*fast forward to post-spm*

...

then there's prom =)

my mom and sisters were real pros... they made me over from top to toe. and they helped me get in the contacts -- i spent one hour =S feeling real different, i took off with a dear friend.

but once there, seeing all chs friends, i felt like how i always did in school again. i had fun going crazy with a few friends on the dance floor -- my friend danced so hard her necklace broke lol =D but it was fixed. and good that we had fun =) the committee did a wonderful job -- THANK YOU!

we might have dressed up on that day, but the sweet memories we had in school were when we were clad in uniforms and donned black rubber bands. we all became friends in school because of who we were inside =) that reminded me that nothing beats inner shine.

and now it's almost 2010 X..
all these memories, all the friends i made in chs, i will remember forever. i'm already missing school.
chs will forever be a part of me, and thank you to everyone who made sec life so wonderful for me X)

but we look forward!! college/form 6 is gonna be great!
well, we're gonna make it great haha XD

2009-12-17T05:04:00.000-08:00

one moment i thought i finally did it, but the other i realized i've not done it yet.

frustrating --- this rots...

but it's gonna be fine soon. cause someone said so, and someone's there.

and i know i can.

owh and, thanks, min =)

2009-12-14T08:29:00.000-08:00

i wanted to write a real long post after spm.... but somehow don't feel like it right now..

sec's over. and still i can't find it, it's hard. trying to be, telling myself that i don't care, that i shouldn't... now i don't even know if it exists.

i can't see it. no one can..

i hope i can find it.. and someone will see it soon =)

2009-09-21T03:02:00.000-07:00

you know it doesn't have to be this hard. you can just close your eyes and go straight on or whatever ---

and it's still somewhere in front anyway.

tell me why again is it so hard to accept that?

it sounds soo delicious =D how wonderful it would be if i could do that. can you imagine? like, it's so unplanned. so random and so... i dunno. it sounds like how it's supposed to be.

and although this occurred to me only during the exam, (like when i was crapping in my essay >< ) i find it kinda true. try as you may to squint down that road, you have to accept that you can't see the end, although you might be able to see the birds or the trees alongside the road. who knows how the view changes? who knows what awaits at the end -- or is there an end at all?

that made me more comfy =) right. shoo, go study. what are you doing here??

2009-09-01T03:52:00.000-07:00

i just watched a stupid video...

a very stupid one which made me laugh like mad but wanna cry....

AND I REALLY WANNA CRY.....

no.....

bad turkey, make me wanna cry...

BAD TURKEY... it's all because of you...

i'm gonna really really really miss you...

i'm gonna miss ALL OF YOU....

HAPPY BDAY JAF!

2009-08-14T02:17:00.000-07:00

my dear jaffy....

HAPPY 17!!! =D

eat more leaves so you'll grow even taller! can reach even higher leaves!
and better balancing too. lol =S

thanks for praisin the salad haha! and playing with all of you on wed was fun.. aww i'll really miss you all =(

and jaf, thanks for being such a good friend of mine =)

so, hope all your dreams come true, and keep smilin! (make sure no leaves 1st!!)

2009-07-18T01:27:00.001-07:00

i went to our class' blog just now. tis been 1++ years, and we've only got a few months left...
even though all of us aren't really close yet, but seeing our class pic there, it's.. aww man.
i want these months to pass slowly.
i wanna get to know everyone better.
and we'll be a great class, who cares if we're already in form 5.

right? =)

2009-07-13T07:42:00.000-07:00

lots been going on these days =D and i gotta remember them all.

starting with night gathering -- not much to say but a big THANK YOU to everyone... including all guides, all participating schools, and of course all chsian supporters.. we wouldn't have been able to do it without you all =) thanks for cheering on even when things were not perfect, and for helping us clean up afterwards. heavy stone off once it was over, but thinking back of all the preparation: the paper folding (thank you everyone who helped me out, whether in class or out of class heehee..), the fun but extremely confusing dance practice sessions (it was last minute but we did ok right? =D all thanks to hong jin, kais, yong, heng, and my partner girry), the constant worry and et cetera. and to min and feli, you were great =) thank you.

and on sat, i woke early to go to school to punggah the chairs (i did 44 chairs! =P) then went to celebrate shu han's bday in 1u. had fun but my bad tummy toned me down a bit.. i hope i can come out with you all again someday =D and kudos to christine for dancing so well that day. it was great ;)

done recording all that, now the hard part comes. sigh.

i didn't want to go to school today. i mean, it's been 4 years.. i just wasn't prepared to step down. as i stood in the tapak i looked around and tried to remember that sea of black heads i was so used to. then i took in a deep breath -- hazy, but i was satisfied. i'll miss all this..

i didn't want to be a prefect, and i remember telling pn cheam i wanted to quit as probationer but she asked me to try longer. i decided to "see 1st" and that brought me to this today, and i'll never regret having been a prefect. i learnt so much-- i became more outspoken, i knew all sorts of friends, i learnt to be braver and more confident... i'd be a completely different person if i quit then. prefectorial board gave me lots of memories that i'll never forget.

and i looked again, then saw someone who was wearing a purple rubber band. then i realised, this was the last day i'd have to do something about that. i'll miss my beloved class-in-charge (i was very strict to them - poor things lol!), i'll miss talking to friends in the prefect room after school, i'll miss the flies above the drain that we stand on during perhimpunan... gosh.

and i still can't find my tie after we threw them in the air. they got mixed up -- i was sad at 1st cause of losing my 4-year companion, but then i got to look at it more positively -- having our ties mixed up made us more like, one.

and i'll go do my homework now. =)

invasion

2009-07-04T08:28:00.000-07:00

just something i thought about...

are you yourself?

i mean, we always hear people telling us (and, well, ourselves telling other people) that we should always be who we are and be proud of ourselves. but now that i give a thought to it, that's hard. i don't even know what kind of a person i really am. do you? am i supposed to?

it's really weird but i get this queer feeling when i start thinking about this. it's so confusing...

are you trying to think? weird isn't it?

and, how do we know what is really right? well, do we really care if what we do is right?

or do we care more about whether what other people do is "acceptable"? i'll admit, i succumb to the latter more.

but why can't i focus on myself? do i really not understand myself that much?

i think maybe, how we want ourselves to be is who we are. is that right? so if that is true, is change necessary to make ourselves better people? and it also means that i don't really mind myself having flaws, but i just can't accept other people's shortcomings. that's so selfish.

so how do we define "better people"?
there it goes again.

you know, thinking about these things help quieten things for a while, especially in this hectic mood all around, with spm and all. it helps you get closer to yourself and other people..

and when you get nowhere with all that thinking,

shrug it off!!! bounce around and have fun.

forgive me for using up your time, but thanks for reading =)

oh yea heng, happy belated ;) thanks for being such a friend. you know, i can't live without your craziness.. take it to the max my friend!! and spread that contagious laughter of yours to all around you like how you always do to me =) thank you. it means so much to me.

2009-06-28T01:49:00.000-07:00

heya!! =D it's paper-returning time, so i just wanna tell everyone that don't be too stressed and it's all for spm, not 2nd term exam ;D so if you're not happy with the results, cheer up and dont be too worried and let's work hard sama-sama yea!!

oh yea, i realized that i'm talking too much bout myself and it's boring. it occured to me again that everyone has probs, and things pass. so let's just.... hehe.... be happy!! lol.. (*can almost see your big sweat drop)

and i wanna say how proud i am of my lil sis who got 1 gold, 1 silver and 1 bronze in the judo tournament today. haha ain't that great! =D

and to one of my friends, (i say this because i know you'll kill me if you see your name =P) please get well soon, although i dunno why you're sick yet, but TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!! drink lotsa water and rest well. i'll miss you a lot... when you can come to school again we'll play till the sky falls!! SO BE SURE TO GET WELL SOOOON!!!!

and to everyone, good luck!! and smile big big yeah!! ;D

i dreamt about you anyway =)

2009-06-08T08:23:00.000-07:00

just a few days ago i wanted to announce to the world that i had enough, and that i couldn't do it anymore... it all seemed to be crazy and hopeless and horribly wrong... but today it doesn't seem so bad anymore. life is crazy anyway =D

haha so things do turn better when they can't get any worse. and i will become a better person after that. but tomorrow you won't see me an entirely different person; lasting changes come slowly. life is great ;)

and hey, smile!!! =D

haha. so random.

been poking around everyone's blog. feels great hahahahaha and

to all my friends, i love you. so you should love yourselves too!!

kiss the mirror ;)

this is so fun..

fingers typed em.

2009-05-29T03:06:00.000-07:00

i know i'm not supposed to be ere =D

but i'm glad. cause it's over =) it was so childish of me. wasted my cells haha.. i mean, i don't even mean anything to you. so why did i feel that way? it's like a small child thing. now i laugh at myself.. and i'm glad i finally can.. cause you're not affecting me anymore. don't worry, you don't know i'm talking bout you =) cause you never noticed anyway. and it's good, thanks for making my life that tad more interesting haha!

and it's happening again, but i don't feel anything. i'm immune. gotta live with it anyway ;)

so...
2 down. now, other than:
- my family =)
- my wacky friends
- scholarships
- my flowers (no i don't mean you can't have them back, min. lol)
- egypian history (it was sudden. blame it on sej!)
- did i say scholarships?
- night gathering stuff
- prefects stepping down stuff *cry*
- ipoh trip (yay!!!)
- sas n.g.-- CAN'T WAIT
- padang ><
- atap <> (dont ask me what's that hahah!!!)
- um, scholarsips
- ........................
- and myself =PP
,

my heart's all on 11 A1s =)

so no one steal my heart in the meantime ;)

exam gila-ness

2009-05-22T06:22:00.000-07:00

ok people. i'll be gone for a while. please don't miss me. i will feel guilty if you do... =P HAH

well

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phew.

THAT actually helps!

ahem.

good luck peeps!! ;)

and don't bother to wish me back.

cause i'm dead for this term anyway.
(to be specific, a dead piece of barbecued meat with lots of gravy. yeah...)

so save it for spm.

i'll need lot of it then.
thanks beforehand ;)

Wheee..............

2009-05-15T07:41:00.000-07:00

ok just wanna jot this down =D

teachers day was ok today =) kudos to kadet polis and krs for keepin everything under control (you all were great!! =D ) and seeing the teachers play with balloons was funny. the teachers deserve to relax, not just for 1 day in a whole year though..

but what's got me remembering is how we prepared for the day. seeing all the prefects stay back to help out, all so busy yet so happy... it brought a tear to my eye (aww!!) this was effective in bringing us closer. i mean, having pizza together, rushing to keep stuff in the rain... hehe...
and thank you to the scouts who helped us out,
and chze zheng.
and chze zheng!!!
THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!! =D

2009-05-15T07:15:00.000-07:00

and this is another late one... sorry!! blame it on hw again!

to the person whom i can trust for honest comments, who laughs genuinely (and is genuinely CRAZY), who made me conquer the canteen floor (GOSH), who makes me laugh till my stomach hurts, and who made my secondary life so memorable....

(sorry i had to steal this pic! i have no proper pics of you!! =S )

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, YONG!!! ( i dunno how to tilt the image! SORRY!!!)

enjoy this year to the MAX! (i'm sure you will!!! =D )

*hugs!!*

2009-05-15T07:02:00.000-07:00

this is so late but....

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DESK NEIGHBOUR!!! =D

thanks for all the forcing-me-to-study, for all the grandma-scoldings bout sleepin early, for all the crazy laughs we had, and for all the difference you made in my sec life =) haha!!

and remember, we are always here!!! glad you're done with qg. we're proud of you!!

MUACKS!!

2009-05-08T08:08:00.000-07:00

MEEEERRRRAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D =D=D
we're great and magnificent!!!
perbarisan no. 1!!! hail pinocchio!!! HAHAHA...
and it's alright that we didnt win in khemah, cause ours was pwetty anyway!! it's the PROCESS that matters.. *quote quote =D* we practise sportsmanship as well as HONESTY, so we feel sad for not more than a while only. cause NEXT YEAR WE'LL BE EVEN GREATER!!!
and you know what, ALL RUMAH ARE WINNERS!!! YAY!!!

and again..
GO MERAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MERAH ROCKS!!!!!!

ooh, and i wanna sleep on the padang again =) sure gonna miss it. soon.

ps, DRINK LOTSA WATER!!! it was hot like mad... dont get sick!!! ;)

2009-05-06T06:11:00.000-07:00

i want it to go away now. it's distracting me and it's frustrating.

i need a hug =(

2009-05-06T06:00:00.000-07:00

i can't stand it!! it's not going away. it's still there.
i can't swallow it, it's hard to act like there's nothing. and it's painful and i wanna cry again.
the more i press it, the more i try to hide it, THE MORE IT COMES OUT. this is soo.... goodness...
i feel like shaking and slapping someone!!!

i hate myself.

this is not working.

and i'm not supposed to be here. blame it on bc hw.

perkhemahan kepimpinan pp 2009 - melaka =)

2009-05-04T06:30:00.000-07:00

hmm just 1 more..

ok this is bout camp (again!) such a relief that it's over.. and i'm sorry ppl for the boring malam kepanduan and messy schedules and istiadat.... but i really hope that everyone enjoyed it otherwise, cause i did =)

for one, i cant believe i completed the rock climbing!!! (HEY IT'S HARD OK!!) and although we all got sore arms, i believe everyone enjoyed it... how everyone cheered and motivated each other and helped each other out, it was great.. and i must confess, i really wanted to give up halfway cause my arms were burning, but you all pressed me on and gave me support physically and mentally and i finally did it... THANK YOU for that =D

then rafting on 2nd day was terrific too... i never thought i could get onto a lorry again after pref camp.. but we all did!!! it was GREAT, and we sang (jiax's version of old texas -.-) and waved to everyone that saw us.. melaka folk is real friendly, they all waved back, and even another lorry driver sounded his horn in a friendly way at us =D then at the beach, we built our rafts and tried to raft but it wasnt so successful, but the raft didnt sink anyway (yay!) but what was great was playing in the sea after that.... it was pure FUN (and salty)!!! we wore floatation devices (that's what en. nizam said they were hehe) and lied on the surface on the sea, holding EVERYONE'S hand in a circle... it was sooo funny but yet it felt warm... and the waves felt so nice(we witnessed the properties of waves and got a dose of sodium enough for a month too lol!)
anyway what touched me the most was the specs incident.. my specs fell off into the raging waves and e v e r y o n e helped me search.. even when i gave up myself and told everyone that i's time to go back, everyone continued searching (han lin ignored me and continued finding without even glancing at me!) everyone searched for so long and even lined up to scan the shore... and at last you all found it.. crap i was so touched that tears came out!! THANK YOU... THANK YOU.... I DUNNO HOW TO LIST DOWN BECAUSE EVERYONE WAS GREAT AND I REALLY FELT LIKE HUGGING EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!!! riding back on the lorry, there was just so much of mixed feelings, the seaside really brought us all something, we could be THAT close and.. well... o n e

3rd day we did flying fox (jumping down felt like the heart fell out!! haha!) and the big see saw thing.... and lotsa other stuff too...

so..

THANK YOU EVERONE, FOR GIVING ME ALL THE SUPPORT FOR THE CAMP, WHETHER OR NOT YOU WENT.... IT MEANS A GREAT BIG DEAL TO ME AND I REALLY GOT A LOT FROM THIS.... THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME.. YOU ALL ARE THE GREATEST!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!

HAPPY RETIREMENT PN KOK =)

2009-05-04T06:11:00.000-07:00

pn kok has retired, and we will all miss her. yeap we all will =) (ok ok i know i'm not supposed to be here and i have tons of homework... but i'm scared that i'll forget some details and so, i have to write my post now =D ok.. just 5 mins...)

anyway we were so chunted that day haha! we practised a lot for the performance, and the 6 ketuas squeezed their brains and drained their energy.... and it's so great that we did the performance the way we did =D perhaps the cancellation of our performance was to make things better (it did! and we screamed "pn kok pn kok you so yeng..... you so hot" anyway lol!!) doesnt matter we did not go on stage, we were fantastic anyway (kudos to anyone who thought of the idea haha!) how we blocked teacher's car in front of dewan and how we continued our performance anyway will stay as a sweet memory in chs... not to forget how we tagged behind the car till it got out of school while singing at the top of our voices (pn kok was soo touched!! aw..) it was great yet heart wrenching. even marching back to school felt so great.. i never thought that i'd get to do something like that... and i'm sure we all will never forget this incident. including pn kok of course ;D

i have no idea how to put the memory in words... but i'm sure it'll stay with us forever =)

2009-04-28T10:23:00.000-07:00

shoot... i didnt notice...

how could i be so careless and stupid...

i'm sorry my dear fwen i really didnt mean to do that.. i was too engrossed in the stuff cause i was so worried bout it... and i didnt realize i was doing what i vowed not to do to anyone.. i know how it feels cause it's what i feel too, most of the times, and thinking about that feeling, i feel like crying... and i'm really sorry....

please forgive me k?? if you'll remember that i am such a person then i understand why, but i hope you'll let me change my ways...

and i'm really sorry...

of sunburn and lobsters and walking tomatoes

2009-04-24T07:34:00.000-07:00

off with rubbish, now to talk bout that marchin competition =)

ppl, we did very well after practising for just 10 hrs!!! yea we're AMAZING.

and walking around like, (here i go again) a dirty lil sunburned kid with leftover choc beside the mouth, (or like a giant walking tomato, according to some ppl) more people responded to my 'hi' than usual. WHAT'S THAT ALL ABOUT?!! lol... =D

and teacher said i look like a lobster! HAHA!

like, look at things that matter. i know it's hard but i'm swallowing it too...

2009-04-24T07:29:00.000-07:00

what's this i feel again
there's something pressing inside
and i dont like it

i'm not sure what it is, but if i buy what i think it is, i'm having a hard time shaking it off...
push against it till it goes.

yea that's the way =)

easier said than done though.

some stuff really make life fun =)

2009-04-17T03:20:00.000-07:00

wheesh---at last got time to blog after what's prob the last camp in school =) what.... that one was last pref camp =P

haha one thing, i've done lotsa 1st times nowadays, thanks to someone =P (ALL YOUR FAULT!! walking barefoot in the canteen was like a taboo to this germophobic freak...) and camp was good. except for the searching for lost t shirt and handphone part... the t shirt was in my bag... kill me! and good thing the handphone's found =) but anyways most of it was great...

like visiting caring home.. it really gave me that kind of feeling-- i dunno how to put it in words... it's like you feel like you understand how they feel but at the same time have no idea at all... and listening to their stories make you feel like, well, i dunno.... my goodness it's like, you really dunno how to help, cause... AH OH WELL I REALLY CAN'T TALK BOUT THIS.... hit me =S

*pics removed due to copyright reasons XD sorry yong!*

fun la.. sigh gonna miss all these moments soon.. =( awww....

oh and wish me luck.. tomorrow saringan*! GO MERAH!!!!! =D

2009-04-04T20:22:00.000-07:00

to friends who care and notice a change in me these days,

i am sorry.

i hate myself for being so selfish..
try as i might there are things that i can't ignore and sometimes it just shows.. there are things that i just can't share for fear it might change anything. and that's the last thing that i'd want because i feel so happy when i'm with you all.. sometimes you just tend to get so tired with everything, you just wonder if it's worth it all.. but you just keep telling yourself, tomorrow things might get better. sometimes it seems like a lie but sometimes you feel so glad that you thought of that, and it's a reason good enough to keep on trying...

but no worries k.. cause it's not a big prob actually, cause things will get better. i am sorry once again for being an electron.. but please remember to help with something--

knock my head when i get down =)

whee...

2009-04-03T01:50:00.001-07:00

keekeekee best april fool's in years... yala i know 2 days ago but just gotta say something bout it =P HAHA...
lets just say i played pranks on soo many people that i can't count, including 2 teachers (lucky they didn't whack me > < )!! although most of them were classic pranks like, there's a spot on your shirt! or eeww.. what bug is that?!! but nevertheless they worked perfectly ;) hahaha... you know what i even got a bit tired cause of prankin around... =P oh and the prankster got her punishment.. oh boy was i embarrassed by that one particular prank... DO NOT do that again cause it may cause a heart attack you know... but gotta admit it was a good one =D haha you know who you are... and 2nd april (white april fool's, according to the crazy kt) i still got pranked. thanks to lyn =P no fair i let my guard down!!! oh yea.

apples are still delicious. =)

reminders come from everywhere. even when you don't want them

2009-03-27T05:54:00.000-07:00

ooohhhh myyy..... chem and moral everyone!!! =S GO GO GO!!!
aiyh. can't even create a proper post. the thunder is saying: "CHEEEEMMMM...... MOOOORRRAAAAAALLLLL....."

oh dear..

okok i'm off!!!

prefects camp =)

2009-03-18T03:44:00.000-07:00

just yesterday and i can't wait to talk bout it hehe!!

camp was great!! despite the weird super-wet-then-super-hot weather, we had real real fun =) we got lots of unique experiences like abseiling, rafting, bathing in a common area with a sarong on, and more haha... playing flying fox in the rain (with your back facing the supposed front -- an accident haha!!) was definitely ichiban. huiyan and i were laughing all the way down! and although the obstacles were a bit tough and some of us had a few cuts here and there, we all had real fun trying them =D i really like our memory task story too =p -- although it was too hard hehe.. night walk was unique too although it was a bit too short!! (but anyway we got to ride on a truck) and the barbecue we had on the 2nd night was delicious..

i don't think i can describe all the fun in just one post =) anyway i really hope that everyone got something from this camp.. and everyone involved, either as participant or committee member, was great ;)

great as a last-year-prefect-camp =D

2009-03-18T03:42:00.000-07:00

i think i might have blown another one. again. sigh....

2009-03-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

hehe just a quick one -- happy birthday chin ying!!!! =D
you've been a great friend right since primary school, and i'm glad we're still as close =)
don't change your ways cause we love you!!!!

going for camp tomorrow, and i've never felt this unprepared... anyway hope everything turns out WONDERFUL... ;)

curi tulang =D

2009-03-13T07:33:00.000-07:00

ah..... =D one more day after hols. and 1st term exam's over!!
but as though the studying ends. must not!!! spm ah!!! hahaha...
been a few weeks since blogged... hmm some things happened--- got my foot stuck in a drain and got a hole in my shoe as a result(yeap that can actually happen); learnt the correct way of studying (tilt your head back a little rather than look down at your book. this is to prevent the stuff that you absorbed from flowing back out through your eyes, though the neck REALLY HURTS---courtesy of beloved xiaoqi ;D ); my little underdeveloped sunflower passed away before i could show to lyn that it'll grow *sob*; and of course tons of studying. hahaha......

and i got this nice email---

good health, good life!

Health Personality Society Life

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like
a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food
that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy..
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their
journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her
mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems
are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra
class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more..
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends
will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

well the last one is to ask you to forward it hehe...
quite a lot to digest, and it's hard to do all that but haha it's still meaningful =D

anyways HAPPY one week HOLIDAYS! (although there's still that maths and bio paper -.-)

the symptoms are coming d... EXAMS!!

2009-02-27T06:19:00.000-08:00

heeheeheehaha... haven't studied for exams... *siao ki liao* gotta work hard d..... no more blogging till holidays!!!

anyway all the best for the exams!!! LET'S WORK HARD PEOPLE!!! =D

and happy birthday to justin, sui lun and wen chun!!! hope that you have a spicy 17!! =P

lost mice =D

2009-02-21T08:35:00.000-08:00

heehee so funny got lost while going to tuition today... we stopped at the right place and the centre was right opposite the road but we walked the other direction... after 20 minutes of frustrating walking and asking around we took a cab and the driver went back the way we walked haha.... got lectured by the driver =S
and now we know next time don't know direction, don't "ke gau" haha...

and had LOTS of fun with everyone and jie en heehee.... look forward to seeing you again!!! =D

nice song =)

2009-02-20T07:34:00.000-08:00

go listen to "run" by leona lewis. almost made me cry... and i'm the type of person who has never cried watching sad movies =S it's really nice... sob...

2009-02-19T02:28:00.000-08:00

perhaps not =) what a relief...
something i learned--friendships can't be forced and it's better to just leave it and let it go on its own =D

2009-02-18T08:02:00.000-08:00

there it goes....

down the drain.

ah well.

"Sweaty" Valentine's Day!! (eew haha)

2009-02-14T05:40:00.000-08:00

happy valentine's day!! =D oh and happy birthday to vanessa too!! keep being the delicious donut you are..

hmm today merentas desa was great! was running behind sharon (haha but couldnt keep up later) and saw lots of people who were so semangat... and it was a bit embarassing when i ran into the L1 place haha =s everyone was staring at me blur.. anyways thanks for everyone's support and congrats to those who made it!! and also thanks to the duty people too =)

erm..to everyone who were in the same situation as me:
we all ran and hoped that we could achieve something because it's the last year and we wanted to create memories... and perhaps what happened wasn't expected at all.. but hey at least we tried and had fun...that's what matters =) it doesnt mean that it won't be a nice memory--it's unique!

the summary?? it's still s-weet ;) happy valentine's again!

of a chick and... poopie

2009-02-13T02:27:00.000-08:00

meet chick.

chick's not the name actually.. it doesn't really have one haha... yi ling said it responded to "money", but it doesn't work for me... we call it Chicky(think chicky meal =S), Pooper, Chicko... haha it's not important =)
i never knew that people in kl reared chicks until recently.. i was laughing when i knew yi ling had a chick but suddenly i find out that i've got some friends who rear chicks =D oh chick chick chick..
anyway this chick came a few weeks ago... it eats rice, but prefers ants, worms, and grass(like yi ling said, it's a very good pest killer). it loves to walk and doesnt like to be held. and it poops a lot haha...
no matter how much it poops on the floor, we still think it's soo adorable when it's sleeping.... and it's afraid of being alone =P i never knew that chicks were so cute..
sigh.. hey fel make up your mind soon =D

heya people =)

2009-02-13T02:16:00.000-08:00

it's the busy time of the year (the whole year is busy haha)... and sometimes we can all get stressed and stuff.. adding up all the problems in exams, co-co activities, friendships, relationships--it's really strenuous haha.. but hey, no matter how busy you are, take time to lay back and watch the clouds, listen to music, look up a nice proverb.... cause it's no good to dance too fast--you might miss out on some nice things in life =) i guess i gotta work on that too...

and remember, you've got friends who really care ;) so SMILE!!

new name for me =(

2009-02-07T08:09:00.000-08:00

that girry and ah key (yea girry you outdated, that's turkey's new name) gave me a new name that i don't really like. you see they took off the juo from my beautiful name and made it loosie or loosy or lucy (they can't even decide) *sweat* haha...
and what's wrong with that girry keep laughing all the day today haha... you go eat leaves and spiders la heehee... laugh like mad today haha...

sigh.. love being at school =) at least i don't think that much when i'm with you all... -get over it! it's spm this year!! and remind me often k k??

confused

2009-02-04T07:14:00.000-08:00

i feel very weirrrd... =S

....thank you =)

2009-01-24T10:20:00.000-08:00

hey everyone, i wanna say a big THANK YOU for all the birthday wishes, presents, cards, and most important of all, for caring and being such good friends. i don't know where i would be today without all of you - you all mean the world to me. thanks for sharing all the joy, happiness and sadness with me all this while, and for helping me out without fail whenever i need it. seriously i can't imagine life without all of you. i love all of you =)
i wish you all a happy chinese new year and may you have a tremendous year ahead -- let's make this year THE BEST of our sec life =D

hey world!!!

2009-01-23T03:39:00.000-08:00

wahahahahahahaha!!!!!

here comes a new terror!!!!!

i know, i know. starting a blog in form five... you must think i'm crazy =D but boy does it feel GREAT!!!

and, check! another weird (if it's weird) thing done in form five. oh you bet i'll do a great deal of those =) i wanna make this year.. well.. FULL TO THE BRIM.

haha well. wish me luck y'all!!